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I know this is corny and it's a line from a song that was sung even before I was born (1981, Lionel Richie and Diana Ross) but it perfectly describes us.

If you know me personally then you probably know about it already, but I think he deserves a more appropriate post... so maybe next time.

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Mon, 04 Mar 2013 17:33:00 -0800 #Yes I am employed. http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/175892549 http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/175892549

The lack of updated posts is mainly because I am now employed in a tertiary hospital in Bacolod City. And yes, when I mean employed, I mean I have salary (unlike my previous work experience where I volunteer for more than a year without any cash incentives. Lol.) 

I am beyond lucky to be working in an area where I am absolutely happy with, re: the Operating Room. Mainly because I used to volunteer in the OR too in my previous hospital, I don't get to wear the white uniform (Haha.), and I am fascinated with surgeries -- blood, gore, innards, included.

My work in photographs:

1. My shiftmates and I in lead aprons.

2. Our first week in the OR. Basically getting to know each other, being assigned in different areas, and adjusting (rather soon enough) to the work environment, pressure and toxicity included.

3. Our breaks, if it was possible. This was my shiftmate Nat's birthday.

4. That's my senior (aka master), Janzine absolutely exhausted and passed out. Oops!

5. Meetings - unit meetings, meetings with ICC, meetings with the Nursing Service blah blah. I hate meetings.

6. I was recently assigned to the General Surgeries Electives and Stat Rooms, here are my "bosses". And did I say I was the only girl in the GS? Meh.

7. We have time to fool around and make fun of each other in the OR. :P

8. Nica v Janzine. Fighttttttt!

9. Our workroom, where we pack our instruments, autoclave them - our usual tambayan and our place to talk about surgeons/anesths we disliked that particular day since it's a secluded area.

10. Since we normally cannot eat or we eat a speed of 5 to 10 minutes maximum (because it's rather hectic), my shiftmates and I take pleasure in eating after duty.

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Sat, 29 Dec 2012 05:07:00 -0800 #Feelings 2012 http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/feelings-2012 http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/feelings-2012

The year is about to end, and there are some feelings, actions, attitude towards life in general that I want to change for 2013.

Not exactly a 2013 New Year's Resolution, more of a summary of how I suck as a person. Haha.

I AM IMPATIENT. I tend to have a timeframe for everything and I despise myself whenever this "timeframe" isn't followed. No, it's not just being tardy or cancelling appointments and whatnots, but goals, plans, and expectations to be exact. There are a number of times this year that I cried a lot because some things are delayed and I was expecting it would be on time (work-related) and I can't do anything about it. I just have to be patient, more patient, most patient.

I GIVE A FCK ON WHAT OTHER PEOPLE WILL SAY OR THINK. Yeah, I may seem to be the kind to be "Whatever, I don't give a fck." but in reality I really, really, really care a lot on what other people will say or think. And because of this attitude, I jinx a lot of things. Jinx is probably an understatement here. Haha.

I AM HARD-HEADED. Ask my friends, ask why they roll their eyes whenever I seek for advice -- because I ask for these but I do things my way, still. I am knowledgeable on certain things yet I continue to be tolerant, borderline martyr (in retrospect) because well, I do things my way. I've made some pretty sucky decisions this year because of this hardheadedness, and I try not to regret about it now. Try is the operative word.

I COMPLAIN A LOT. I complain and whine on a daily basis, to the littlest things to the relevant things (that I must say, complaining is acceptable.) and I know I shouldn't do it because compared to other people I am still lucky and blessed. But I still do it! Ugh. I'm complaining again.

I AM AVOIDANT. I am annoyed by your presence, I avoid you. I didn't like what you said to me, I avoid you. We have a misunderstanding, I avoid you. My parents won't let me out of the house, I avoid talking to them. That's how I was wired I guess, that the best way to settle things is to avoid them. Which is really a bad way to solve things, I know.

I TEND TO THINK OF THE WORST THINGS POSSIBLE THAT MAY HAPPEN TO ME, AND I DO A "RUN THROUGH" OF IT JUST TO SEE HOW IT FEELS. No, I'm not self destructive, it's just that whenever something good comes up in my life, I think of the bad way it might end and I prepare for it already - like preparing my feelings, how I'm going to cope up with it, etc. Yes, this is love related. I am quite pessimistic with love. Read on: JINX.

I FEEL GUILTY AFTER EATING. I think this is probably self explanatory already.

I AM A SUCKY DRIVER. One accident this year, wasn't my fault but still an accident. I'm not the most peaceful driver on the road, my mom usually reprimands me because I blurt out pamuyayaws when I hate the jeepney drivers cutting lines in front of me. I am also a passive aggressive kind of driver, the kind that pisses you off by driving really slow in front of you. Wah.

I HAVE BIG EXPECTATIONS. I've read it somewhere, that you tend to expect because you know that you expect yourself to do these things to the other person too. Guess what, it doesn't always happen and it always leads to disappointments.

I TEND TO DEVALUE MYSELF. Quoting from POBAW, "We accept the love we think we deserve." Holds true, right? Except that sometimes I don't know how much I deserve actually or I question what I've accepted, if it's really what I deserve - or less, or more. So I tend to devalue myself and well, settle to whatever there is.

I AM THE WORST PERSON TO LOVE. I consider myself as "damaged goods" so I try to repeat in my head all my mistakes for this year as a daily reminder of things I should never do again when it comes to love so I tend to be #bitterforevs (Yes, hashtag intended. Haha.) and miss out enjoying some things in life. I am selfish because I tried putting someone else before me before and it didn't work out so I'm never doing that again. I am extra careful nowadays because I don't want to trust easily. These are just a few things and there's probably more reasons.

NOTE: I know this post is sort of pessimistic, negative, not at all happy. It's going to be a reminder for me that I need to change these for the coming year and I want to look back by December 2013 and be happy that I've tried (at least) to change these things. See, that's being optimistic.

Happy new year! 

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Sun, 11 Nov 2012 19:12:00 -0800 #wedding http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/wedding http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/wedding

Late post number 7.

 

A friend of my mom's got married and I tagged along. I am always fascinated with wedding photography so I decided to take my 70-300mm Nikkor lens and use it in the wedding. Here are my better shots, I suppose. Since carrying these lens are so tedious and I need more practice.

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Sun, 11 Nov 2012 18:56:00 -0800 #baptism http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/baptism http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/baptism

Late post number 6.

Attended a baptism of one of my nieces. Look at how cute she is! Particularly happy she cried at the end. Bwahaha.

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Sun, 11 Nov 2012 18:37:00 -0800 #25 part dos http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/25-part-dos http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/25-part-dos

On my birthday itself, I had a birthday dinner with my lolo, lola, and the rest of the family in Marhaba, a restaurant in Silay. (Note to self, must visit there again and make a post about their food.)

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Me blowing my 2 and 5 candles. Funny that I had a similar photo of this, except that I was blowing a 1 candle at that time. Hehe.


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My lolo and lola, my mom's parents. I'm happy that they're healthy on my birthday despite these year's in and out of the hospital trips.

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The rest of the family. I dare not use the term "fambam". 

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I got it from my Mama. 

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Sun, 11 Nov 2012 17:59:00 -0800 #25 part uno http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/25-part-uno http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/25-part-uno

Late post number 5.

 

Aside from Masskara, October is also my birth month. This year I decided to have a birthday salubong with a couple of friends instead.

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I look so giddy turning a year older. Haha.


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Teptep and Camille whom we call ourselves the mean girls but we are not like that at all. Teptep's my number one kunsintidora and Camille is my original bitter friend. Bwahaha. (We love to tease Camille all the time.) Love you girls!

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Kirstie, Marian, and Jude who had been my friends since forever. Girls, Jude is single and ready to mingle. Bwahaha. 

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Omega and John who had been my manang and manong in the hospital, except that I don't call them that, at all. Haha. I usually third wheel with them and they feed me all the time.

My birthday cakes.
We ate at Jay - Jay's (no pun intended.) which is one of my favorite Filipino restaurants and here are the food that I ordered, albeit too many that I had loads of doggybag afterwards.

To cap the night off, some drinks. I had to drive home so yeah, everything in moderation.

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Cheers to another new year for me! Let's make the most out of it.

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Sun, 11 Nov 2012 17:49:00 -0800 #Mambukal http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/mambukal http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/mambukal

Late post number number 4.


On the Sunday of the Masskara Weekend, my mom and I joined a tita and her family to go to Mambukal Resort, which was located in Murcia, a 45 minute to 1 hour drive from Bacolod City.

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I was the designated driver. Pardon the paleness due to the lack of sleep. I loaded myself with coffee though. Hehe.

See, the Iphone 4s + Instagram filters make me a lazy photographer. Here are the nice photos I took using my phone. 

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Sun, 11 Nov 2012 17:10:00 -0800 #Masskara 2012 http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/masskara-2012 http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/masskara-2012

Late post number 3.

 

It's once again, October! You guessed it right. Brace yourselves, Masskara pictures are coming. (See what I did there? Haha.) 

Anyways, this year's celebration was still fun and thank God it didn't rain. This time, my barkada and I prepared masks so we could enter Art District's Maskarave Party instead of smuggling masks from the inside (like last year. Oops!)

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This is what Lacson Street, "Tourism Strip" looks like around 8pm. Just imagine how crowded it looks like at around 11pm. (We weren't there to witness it.)


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Drinking while walking the streets. Totally legit. (Note: I noticed that of all alcoholic drinks, vodka based drinks are the ones I am most tolerable to, given my allergic nature to alcohol. Meh.)

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A short stop at L'fisher to pee. 

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We decided to go to Art District and rode a tricycle (my suggestion. Haha.) because I left my car in Art District beforehand.

Jude, Marian, and I wearing our masks. Okay. I cheated. I bought another mask because my mask was too girly beyond words. Hahaha.

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A random photo which captures all the colors of the disco lights and my "Life in Technicolour" inspiration.

While we were on the dancefloor...

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Cheers to the nights we can hardly remember. Remember kids, don't drink and drive!

#Happy clicking!

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Sat, 03 Nov 2012 19:11:00 -0700 #lack of updates http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/lack-of-updates http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/lack-of-updates

I suck for the lack of updates. Either I'm a lazy ass or my schedule was too hectic.

Nonetheless, I'll try to do some updating ... now.

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Mon, 16 Jul 2012 10:21:00 -0700 #must get this out of my system http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/must-get-this-out-of-my-system http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/must-get-this-out-of-my-system

This is a very personal post, so if you really don't want to get caught up with my emotions (also I'm PMS-ing now) please don't proceed.

I have been struggling for the past few months.

It's the struggle to see someone bad for you or to not see that person. I'm caught up with doing the right thing and just go all out rebellious and be reckless, what the hell. It's about the person I became because of him versus the person I want to be.

I am questioning myself and (of course) my feelings, if it is indeed love that I'm feeling, or maybe I'm just after some of my so called needs. The latter seems to be my train of thought, so I kept myself busy and tried my best not to reply to texts. Simply ignore. 

It worked for a few months, but then my volunteer program ended and I"m back to being a bum and then, his presence was felt again. Call me stupid or acting like one, but yeah, I entertained thoughts of meeting up with him again.

I was supposed to meet up with him this Wednesday, but I decided not to. I prayed more fervently than I usually do, because I really want to stop getting tempted and I know what will happen again, what happens after -- it's the fricking never ending cycle that I memorized all parts already. I asked God for a sign, or an intervention, that will just make me believe that I'm doing the right thing of saying NO.

I got my answer this evening. Someone messaged me on facebook, it was his friend, according to him, but of course, I know better. This was an ex girlfriend or a current one. To be honest, I didn't feel any hatred towards the girl because I have been expecting everything that she's going to share or say to me. I find it funny when she said that she's scared to tell me that indeed she became the girlfriend only for a few weeks, then the guy decided to dump her. Of course I knew she was dumped. Why? Because it was the same day that the guy texted me and I was telling him that probably a girl (I never mentioned her name to him) will be angry if we see each other again and he said she will not get angry because she doesn't have the right to be angry because they're just friends. 

Are you getting the gist of this? 

To keep our hours of messaging each other back shorter, I got to learn what happened to them, the reasons of the breakup, and she also asked me questions which I don't mind answering, questions about me and the guy, etc.

Now my realizations.

He is the biggest jerk, liar, manipulative person that I have ever known and I don't know why the girl can manage to forgive him so easily. She's too nice. He always picks on girls who are too nice and would rather keep quiet than make a scene of his assholeness. 

His "moves" from last year up until this very day is still the same and girls still fall under that same "I'm a good guy slash I won't hurt you guy slash I'm a different guy slash you can trust me guy" persona. How do I know all of this? More than a year of going through that makes me know him better than anyone else.

The girl shared how hurt she was, and I didn't say anything, but at the back of my mind, I wanted to tell her that what you felt or feeling right now, or whatever happened to both of you, it isn't even a tenth of what I experienced with him. As I always say, it's been like I've been to hell and back and I had no clue of what happened afterwards.

It's always the same realization. I should have listened to a friend who knows him personally, I should have saved myself from the hurt blah blah blah. 

The girl was shocked on how nonchalant I was with his cheating and his hookups. To be cheated on (except we weren't together and there's no commitment so it's not really strictly cheating per se) a few times, learning about it, confronting him, his abrupt ends to this so called diskartes and relationships -- I know the drill and I'm tired of it already.

Why do these girls always ask me why me and him weren't together? The girl even told me that maybe he's in love with me to begin with. Hmm. See this is how I put it, I do not hope that we'll end up together (and I say this with all honesty) because I cannot imagine having a life with him, but rather I hope that he'll change his ways. He does not love me, people. If he did before, it ended when I said YES to whatever we decided on. If he loves me, he wouldn't let me go through all this. If he loves me, he would have realized it a long time ago and said it to me upfront. Yes, I'm being hard on myself but this is how I put things in their perspective. I do not wear rose colored glasses in any relationship. I try to keep it real all the time.

One little truth that made me question myself was the fact that she became his girlfriend and he did commit to her even just for a few weeks. You see, he's afraid of commitments and I wasn't offered that same status if you'd like to call it as one. Talking with a good friend (who happens to be a mutual friend of his too) gave up this insecurity. Point taken, his friend offered commitment in exchange for the three letter word and when the girl cannot give it to him, he dumps her. Jerk move.

Considering all his girls and their experiences, I had the worst and it's unimaginable. You wouldn't believe that a well bred, properly raised only child could do such things and would settle for that certain situation, and I'm a boat trip far away.

You see now, I deserve a lot better than him. Not considering the looks, and the proper English grammar (because that's me and my shallowness) I deserve a man who will not complicate my life and make me feel that I have to compete for his attention.

Right now I'm praying to get this seek for revenge feeling to go away. I mean you know, I had plans to go there and smash his car windows and tail lights, scratch his car doors, spray paint the word "JERK" or "MANWHORE" in his windshield, pop his tires until they're flat. Yes, that sort of seek for revenge feeling. With all the things he has done, a broken car is one of the very least he would deserve.

My head hurts but at least this sort of thing really helps. I read past posts (in tumblr) about what I went through with him and it's tedious. Being patient and tolerant is tedious especially if the other person doesn't give a fuck.

I give up on you, C. Go fix yourself because I cannot fix you anymore.

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Thu, 12 Jul 2012 07:11:00 -0700 #favorite book http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/145572606 http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/145572606

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On my flight back from Manila to Bacolod, I was seated at the Row 1 seats (near the emergency exit) and I was reading Perks of Being a Wallflower when the flight attendant began talking to me. For the whole duration of the flight, we talk about books and she asked me the question "What's your favorite book?" and I told her that it's One Day although I didn't explain to her why it's my favorite book. We were about to land already.

I honestly bought the book because of the (by then) upcoming movie starring Anne Hathaway and Jim Sturgess and friends who are also avid readers, recommended me the book and one even said that she was reminded of me and my guy best friend. Oh-kay. That was awkward.

One Day, in my simplest summary of it, is about Emma and Dexter, their friendship in a span of twenty years, and how we are given glimpse of their lives in those span of years by that special day: July 15, every year, when they first met. The two characters are very different from each other, Emma being a smart middle-class woman who has low self-esteem; and Dexter, the more privileged, well-traveled, self-absorbed man, yet they seem to cannot live without each other and there are always points in the book which I could say "Just be together, will you?!" 

It's a book that makes you question the "the one that got away" or the cliche question that if a man and a woman are friends, at one point in their lives, do they question themselves "Can we only be just good friends, nothing more?"

Quite an interesting book, really. At some point you'll feel nostalgic, you'll laugh because maybe you probably have been an Em or a Dex at one point of your life, and you'll cry because well... no spoilers here, just read the book and how it ends.

Here are some lines in the book that I love.

"Emma composing long, intense letters crammed with jokes and underlying, forced banter and barely concealed longing; two-thousand word acts of love on air-mail paper."

"The main thing is that I think about you a lot, that's all. Dex and Em, Em and Dex. Call me sentimental, but there's no one in the world that I'd like to see get dysentery more than you." -- Dexter, from his letter to Emma in India

"Oh you know me, I have no emotions. I'm a robot. Or a nun. A robot nun." -- Emma

"If you're my friend I should be able to talk to you, but I can't, and if I can't talk to you, well what's the point of you? Of us?" -- Emma

"Dexter, I love you so much. So, so much, and I probably always will. I just don't like you anymore. I'm sorry." -- Emma

"When I didn't see you, I thought about you everyday, I mean every day in some way or another -- even if it was just "I wish Dexter could see this" or "Where's Dexter now?" or "Christ, that Dexter, what an idiot!" you know what I mean, and seeing you today, well, I thought, I'd get you back -- my best friend." -- Emma

"Finally, she loved someone and felt fairly confident that she was loved in return. If someone asked Emma, as they sometimes did in parties, how she and her husband had met, she told them "We grew up together." 

So, what's your favorite book?

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Mon, 09 Jul 2012 08:38:00 -0700 #Singleness et al. http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/144790243 http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/144790243

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Hello, there. Welcome to my late night random thoughts and feelings.

Don't click the "Read the rest of this post" if you don't want your nose to bleed. Kidding!

I don't know. It must be the weather or the fact that last year things were doing great for me, sort of. It must be the fact that everytime people see me, a familiar person would always ask "Why are you still single?" Was that a rhetorical question or do I need to answer that? 

I think I have pretty much good self esteem but when this question pops up, I'm like "Fuck. Something might be wrong with me because I'm still single." Then I point out things with myself why I'm still single.

No. I'm not trying to be pessimistic or demean myself and be all out insecure. I'm just trying to be level-headed with everything, or something like that.

Reasons why I'm still single, according to me and according to everyone else (and my rationalizations.) :

1. I'm not the "conventionally" pretty or beautiful. Okay. That's pretty shallow, I know, but the point is, I don't fall into the "chinita" category, or the "tisay" category, or whatever category there is, not that I agree with categorizing people in the first place. Or the fact that I'm not stick thin, not tall enough, too curvy blah blah blah. Scratch this reason off. I may not be the most good looking person in the world but I look good, okay? According to me.

2. I'm too choosy or that my standards for the people I date are too high. I don't know. Do I have high standards? I look back people I used to date and wow, could I have been more stupid? Okay. If I were to set standards now, it will be simple and not shallow. I want a guy my parents like for me (although the last guy I dated was seem likable and harmless yet he turned out to be a monster.) , I want a guy who is stable or at least has a direction in life, I want a guy who pays on a date or at least lets me pay what is due for me only (I dated a guy who made me pay for everything -- movies, snacks, desserts, I even drove him home. Fuck.) I want a guy who goes to church, I want a guy who at least has a passion in life and not just be a dumb person who is too mainstream and follows all the trends set by consumeristic giants, I want a guy who has correct grammar and pronunciation in English, the list goes on and on but bottomline is: I want a guy who can prove to me that's he's not like any other guy I dated. Yes, it sounds cliche but yeah -- that guy.

3. I have trust issues. Hmm, dating someone who brought me to hell and back and I felt like made me ride a rollercoaster of emotions a hundred times over and over again until there's nothing left for me to grasp, yes, I got to have trust issues. It's what you get from being broken and I think I need to work on that part of me.

4. I'm too broken and scarred. Hahaha. It sounds dramatic and you wouldn't imagine me saying that because I'm such a happy person but if you knew what I went through, you wouldn't look at me the same way you're looking me now. In fact, I'm sure you'll hug me and want to kill the person who made me this level of broken-ness. I admit I'm picking up the pieces, I'm trying to be a good person again, I'm really trying my best and I feel that dating a guy so I could take revenge on the shitty things that happened to me and break his heart will be really unfair. I'm not ready to invest feelings again for someone because I'm scared I'll be hurt again.

5. My parents are strict, I don't have control of my schedule everyday, I have curfews. This is self-explanatory. Definitely.

6. I intimidate guys. It's probably the car, the personality, the friends, the grades, the things I like, I don't know what exactly. I mean seriously, I'm not high maintenance and I can take care of myself. I take simple joys in eating shawarma rice and kwek-kwek. If you know what I mean.

7. I have an appetite that's comparable to a guy's. A guy friend told me that if I will have a boyfriend someday, that guy better have a big appetite too, or a big wallet since I eat a lot. Do I eat a lot? Hahaha. I mean, my logic is this: I'd rather not have new clothes or shoes as long as I can eat in a restaurant that I want to eat in or I can eat my favorite food over and over again. 

8. I'm too intelligent -- a guy I used to date told me this. This got me wondering, really? I'm too intelligent or you're just insecure of my intelligence per se. I tried "toning down" the intelligence factor, you know, play stupid even though you know you're being stupid and where did it get me? Refer to number 4 please.

9. I'm selfish and impatient. Selfish that I think of my welfare more than anyone all the time and impatient because I like to talk things out now during a fight rather than wait for things to cool down or the fact that you're supposed to tell me something and then you're going to leave it for later, it slowly kills me to wait. I don't want to wait.

10. I'm waiting for someone. Big question mark. Everybody seems to tell me this, you're probably waiting for *insert name here* and the fact that he said he'll only date someone who never had a boyfriend ever makes me unconsciously "save" my no boyfriend since birth status in life. But really, am I waiting for him? Do I really torture myself with unrequited love because it's so fun to love someone who'll never love you? Oh, I'm so screwed. Hahaha.

I know friends are desperately trying to help me find a date or a boy toy or a rebound or somewhere in between those lines. I guess I'm just a complicated person and I have trust issues and I don't want to invest any goddamn feelings I have left just to anyone for the meantime.

Hmm. Maybe someday I'll be ready, and by that time, it's not yet too late.

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Sat, 23 Jun 2012 04:12:00 -0700 #missing the OR http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/missing-the-or http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/missing-the-or

This is a late post.

I consider myself lucky because I was able to spend 6 months or more to volunteer inside the OR. Consider also the fact that I joined 3 surgical missions in that 6 months, and it was the "birthing season" where CS was on a daily basis.

Yes, it is nerve wracking. The opening and seeing body parts of the human body does not make me nervous (most of the time) but rather, it is to be working side by side with surgeons and anesthesiologists that scares the hell out of me. Hahaha.

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I mean, who would want to be shouted at because you don't know what instrument to give, right? It was a learning process for me, really.


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Here's a photo of us smiling with one of our surgeons during an operation. The most awesome feeling in the world for me would be "first assisting" the surgeon (rather than the senior staff nurse.) 

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Ahh. The charting, this I miss too. Over the months it gets shorter and shorter because we do have our own shortcuts already.

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I am also thankful that in the OR, we are treated like we are part of the family. I bet my senior staff nurses will agree, but me being the "older" volunteer was treated like the "youngest". Me and my  only child syndrome and my immaturity and always the concern of everyone -- especially when it comes to my so called love life. Hahaha. 

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It was great to get to know people whom you know will always be there for you. Sober or not.

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Thank you for accepting my toxicity and my non-stop talking about him. I knew you'd roll your eyes in disgust.

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The random crying and laughing at the same time.

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And everything in between and extreme. Check out the photo. Hahaha.

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Manong John, Blessy, Tintin, Beauty, and me (with the puffy eyes because I cried again.)

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Thank you to our supervisor Tita Julie and to all our senior staff nurses for being patient with us and imparting to us their knowledge and skills in the OR. Special mention to Nang Lyle, Tita Rose, Nong Millard, Tita Helen (who calls me palangging) and Manong John.

I hope I could say, I shall return? Let's cross our fingers to that one. :)

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Thu, 21 Jun 2012 02:05:00 -0700 #in the bedroom http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/in-the-bedroom http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/in-the-bedroom

They say you'll know a person better by his or her room, a sanctuary of some sorts.

My room, it's not that different from anyone else's, but here's a few random things you can find in it. (I'm just making an excuse to use my DSLR again and since I'm PMS-ing and cannot go out today --- here's a result of a boring Thursday afternoon.)

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Flats. Other than slippers, they're probably the most comfortable footwear I own. These are my current favorites.


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Camera stuff. I'm glad my parents are sort of supportive (read: they buy me stuff) when it comes to my passion (and sometimes lack of passion) towards photography, hence the different lens I happen to own. 

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"Good color should wrap around you." and a whole lot of quotes I plaster on my corkboard for inspiration.

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Books. I have enough of them, and these are a few of my favorites -- the ones that inspire me the most or that made me cry or I just love because of how beatifully it was written.

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Medals. I was an overachiever growing up and my parents wanted to plaster all my medals in my wall to remind me of all the hardwork that paid off and how proud I both made them feel.

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Random quirky stuff, like this cupcake a friend gave to me. It's actually a lip gloss and a key chain of some sorts but I'd rather not use it as a keychain since I always lose things.

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Girly perfume. These are my mother's futile attempts to make me a girly girl. Hahaha. But of course, knowing me, I'd rather display these stuff in my dresser and still use baby cologne any given day.

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A lot of unused clothes. The animal printed + sheer top, polo long sleeved shirts (that I can't seem to wear appropriately because of the weather) that are waiting to be used and kept in one part of my closet.

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A collage of my favorite movies of all time. I did this a few summers ago (when I was still creative as hell. Chos.) and it still needs to be framed and hanged into my wall. Can you guess some of the movie posters?

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My laptop. My mother is happy that I finally have this placed inside my room rather than lying around in the living room, the dining room, or the kitchen. It's an old Acer laptop that I had since college and I have no plans of replacing it anytime soon.

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Reminders. I'm a person that needs to see her reminders or I else I will forget it. Speaking of which, that set of reminders need to be replaced soon. Note to self.

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Hello! It's me with my giddy face and my messy hair. Hah.

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Fri, 08 Jun 2012 20:30:00 -0700 #My "workplace" http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/my-workplace http://dreamingofrevelry.posterous.com/my-workplace

This is how my desk looks like. I'd like to keep it as clutter free as possible so my mind would not be cluttered as well.

Notice the corkboard slash inspiration board? Yeah, even that part is clutter free and minimalist. Just a spot for my reminders, a spot for quotes that inspire me, and a spot for a selected photo prints I love.


 

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